Visions and Mystical Experience
The Psychic Vase and Its Shattering
This was an out-of-the-body experience in ancient Greece. It occurred three years after my hearing of the sermon on the text "And she brake the box." [Ed. note: this account of hearing a sermon several hours before it was actually preached is found elsewhere in An Open Door.] The relation between the two experiences is fairly obvious. In both, attention is being called to the Law of Eternal Progression.
First, I was in the presence of a very old man. He was a teacher of profound wisdom and I was his pupil. The bulk of his instruction I did not bring through to waking consciousness: I remembered only the story of the "Vase" and its shattering, with which he concluded his teaching. A remarkable feature of his telling of the story was that I lived it there and then, as he was telling it. Here is the story:
Many centuries ago, there lived an aged man of great knowledge and magic power, whose most treasured possession was a beautiful and wonderful vase. Where the vase had come from or how old it was no one knew. He had been wont to relate a prophecy concerning it with an origin as mysterious as the vase itself. The vase, said the aged one, imprisoned a soul that, by the selfish pursuit of pleasure, had brought about this imprisonment. In course of time, so he prophesied, the vase would pass into the keeping of a maiden destined to release the imprisoned soul and receive as her reward the secret of the happy influence that was shed around it: for whoever possessed it or received it into their dwelling was always happy as long as it was with them. At length, the first part of the story was fulfilled, and the vase passed into the keeping of such a "maiden"--the daughter of the aged one--who, though herself growing old, was still a maiden, for alas, she was ugly and misshapen, and was unsought and unloved.
At this point in the story I became identified with the "maiden" and I lived the rest of the story as the Teacher told it.
For some time the maiden, Flora, was happy and content in possession of the vase. She loved its beauty. At times, as she gazed on it, the carved marble seemed to glow with life: the figures of the nymphs who lightly supported it seemed to blush with warm vitality; the flower petals seemed as fragile and fair as nature's own; and the grape vines to bear such luscious-seeming fruit clusters that she almost thought to pick them. More than its beauty, however, she loved its music; for sometimes at dusk, and sometimes at dawn, strange, sweet melodies murmured in and around it, and suggested to Flora thoughts mysterious and sacred.
Then the idea began to grow upon her that she, ugly and despised, was unworthy to be the guardian of the mystic vase, the sole beneficiary of its mysterious influence, and she resolved to take it to the temple nearby and dedicate it to the service of the gods. Because of the fame and beauty, the preciousness and desirableness of the vase, she went on her purposeful errand late at night and secretly. She carried the vase carefully concealed beneath her dark cloak and made her way in slow, ungainly fashion across the temple floor. Then suddenly, at that most unexpected hour, burst forth that strange, sweet music in soul enrapturing strains. Flora, alas, was startled and afraid; her fingers trembled. The precious vase slipped through them and broke into a thousand fragments on the marble floor. With that echoing crash, the music ceased abruptly. Then arose the muffled cries and sobs of Flora, who, with face buried in the dark cloak, lay bowed in anguish and fear: anguish for the loss of the vase which had been her sole comfort and happiness, dismay that what she had desired to devote was now neither hers nor the gods. Then, too, she was full of fear as to the meaning of this thing. Was it not a manifestation of the anger of the gods? So full of sorrow and fearful imaginings was she that, for a time, she did not realize that someone was speaking to her: "Flora! Why do you weep for what was but a beautiful shroud? "
Timidly, Flora raised her head and looked around but no temple attendant or angel did she see, though the voice continued: "Weep not that your did not give that beautiful clay to the gods: they do not need it not, and if you had given it, you might have come here often to gaze upon it, and presently have desired it once more. So would it have been the cause of grievous sin to you. Neither grieve that the vase is broken, for there was no power in its lifeless beauty to bring you the happiness of thy desire. You have already found the secret of happiness; for in true humility and selfless devotion you resolved to give this, your most treasured possession, to the gods, and that it broke is the sign that you have their favour. The vase is shattered that your sacrifice of self may remain. Go from here in peace; bearing within you the secret of happiness. It shall make your form most lovely and yourself beloved."
Out-of-the-Body Instruction by Panorama of Religions
About two months before the Rector's passing to the life-beyond-death, the Teacher showed me, in the extended consciousness, the panorama of religion through the ages in the lands around the Mediterranean Sea, which in the Hebrew Scriptures is called "The Great Sea." That there were other races on earth before the Adamic Race seems probable, but the Teacher has said no word of them. He has confined his teaching to the Adamic Race. The testimony of religious teachings, practices and temples of this race, as stated in Man, the Temple of God, goes back 23,000 years. This testimony equates with the Sequence of the Signs of the Zodiac used in Astrology, and apart from all legends or sacred writings or "Secret Doctrine," the evidence is factual and indisputable that the present human race has lived and worshipped on earth for at least Twelve Ages of approximately 2,000 years each.
What the Teacher showed me in March 1940 related to the sequence of religious concepts and worship practices during that time-period. Whether the Great Pyramid was in existence from beyond that period I have not been told. The Teacher says that it was not built to be a temple, but a Prophecy in Stone. It testifies to the faith of the builders in the reality of God, and reveals in a sequence a program of Divinely-ordered educative experience for the Adamic race.
My experiences in the Great Pyramid in 1943 and 1946 revealed to me that there was such a program that was known to men thousands of years before the dating of the Creation decided upon by Bishop Usher. It revealed that there were humans in the life-beyond-death who knew all about the Great Pyramid and about the future of the Adamic Race up to and beyond the present time. It revealed that Christ Jesus is “Lord of the Living Dead,” and that He leads the Race toward the next major enlargement of consciousness. It revealed that there were, in the realms beyond death, those of advanced understanding and spiritual power who served the God-purpose, and who led mankind toward the fulfillment of it, following where Jesus, as the Universal Agent of the Purpose, manifested his Living Presence. It revealed that the Teacher was leading me along a path designated by the Living Christ.
Out-of-the-Body Instruction in Great Pyramid of Egypt
On November 19, 1943, I found myself, in the extended consciousness, climbing the outside of the Great Pyramid. This was not a reliving of an actuality in the long ago, but an action parable. Each step was my full height; this I interpret, rightly or wrongly, to signify one step in one lifetime.
In that same year, the Teacher spoke of two entrances I had made into the Great Pyramid. He said I had entered by one in ancient Egypt and by one in the time of Moses. Many people regard the Great Pyramid as a Temple of Individual Initiation, but the Beloved Apostle said, on November 12, 1971:
"The Great Pyramid is the Prophetic Message in stone, of a great seer of ancient Egypt, setting forth the pattern of conditions from age to age, as mankind progresses slowly toward the fulfillment on earth of God's Purpose."
Entrance into the Pyramid signifies physical incarnation, and the Pyramid itself signifies the evolution of the Adamic Race in earth conditions. The place where we now are is more steep and narrow than it was at the time of my entering in 1891, but by the help of the light from the Apex, the going is made easier. In my astral excursion into the Pyramid in the year 1943 I thought I was two-thirds of the way up and I did not know what that signified, but I think now that it meant I was at the passage leading to the Queen's chamber. The whole interior of the Pyramid was lit with beautiful radiance from the inside of the Apex. Strong rays of golden light were focused on my forehead and seemed to not merely light the way ahead, but to exert an uplifting power, so that I climbed as easily as if walking on the level. At the top of the incline was a horizontal passage at right angles leading to a room on my right that I knew was there, but could not see. It was revealed to me later the same day, that the room I could not see was "The Queen's Chamber."
In 1946, on Good Friday, I had another experience in the Great Pyramid. On that occasion I was aware of entering from an English country lane; this signifies my present incarnation. It was a narrow lane bordered with hedges and flowers of the English countryside, but it got quite barren and began to descend until it became a narrow defile between high cliffs of clay. These changed gradually from clay to granite walls of square blocks. The narrow path descended more steeply every moment. At first I was intrigued with the sense of adventure and put out my hand occasionally to touch the walls and feel their reality, for I was fully conscious and knew I was having an out-of-the-body experience; but as the path began to descend into the depths of the earth, as it were, my heart sank in me with fear for the unknown. Still, I went forward with determination and courage. As the path got narrower and the incline downwards got steeper, my heart kept getting fresh sinking feelings; but I was cheered by rays of light reflected on the walls around me, and then I saw that they came from an unusual lamp held in the palm of the hand of a man who was ahead of me and who was coming back along the path to meet me. At first I did not recognize him but as I proceeded and we drew nearer together I knew him, by his magnetic eyes and black hair, and his blue cloak, to be the one whom, at the beginning of my astral experiences, I had named "the Egyptian."
I was much intrigued with the lamp he was carrying. It was a cube of clear crystal with a flame in the middle of it. He held it cupped in his hands, manipulating it so that it lit the path at my feet. It cast its rays with a soft clear light long before the man himself came into view. From the place where he met me, the path turned at a sharp angle to the right and began to gently incline upwards. I was not disturbed by this change right away, but as the path became still narrower and the incline steeper, I became increasingly alarmed. I did not have the sinking feeling any more because I knew I was on the way up, but the path was narrower than a foothold and the incline was practically straight up. Looking up as far as I could see, there was an endless expanse of granite wall. However, I was not panicky. I did feel that the grade was too steep for me, and that the wall was too high for there to be any prospect of my getting to the top, or even to where I could see the blue sky once more. At this point, I was standing on a narrow sliver of a ledge, with my back against the spiraling wall. I looked back for the man with the lamp, for he was behind me after I started the ascent. He was not in sight, but standing just a pace or two from me was a tall man in ceremonial attire. I judged him to be a Pharaoh of ancient times. I now know him to be a manifestation of Osiris. At that time I had not even heard of Osiris. He had on a long robe of linen—natural colour—and carried the crook and flail crossed on his breast. His facial expression was of one looking down the long corridors of time and his eyes were flames of fire. His garments had the appearance of great age and as I reached out to touch them, the part that I touched crumbled to dust.
Directly I saw him I had the spontaneous and overwhelming feeling of devotion to him that I have felt always and only for Jesus, the Christ, and I flung myself at his feet crying out, "0 my dear Lord and Master." At this, the whole of his appearance as Osiris fell away, and he stood before me as Jesus the Good Shepherd with the crook of the Shepherd of Israel in one hand and the flail of Cosmic Law in the other.
He then turned onto the narrow ledge leading away to my right and two men, one in present day attire, followed him, one behind the other. I was standing with my back to the wall of the Pyramid. Who they represent I have not been told. My own guess is that they were men of Christ illumination appointed by Him to give me help and guidance from the life-after-death. I had the impression that they had not been known to me in this life. Following along behind them was the man with the lamp. They all went along the narrow passage to my right and through a door into a room which the man with the lamp had said on November 19, 1943, was the "Queen's Chamber."
I returned to my physical body and consciousness, as the man immediately behind the Lord Jesus was passing in front of me.
The following interpretation of my experiences in the Great Pyramid was given recently (April 1972):
"They were used as a mirror to reveal to you your situation in relation to the purpose of God and the Program of the Lord Jesus. The message of both was that the goal ahead for all mankind is the Queen's Chamber and that you are at that level and just a short distance from the goal. The cube lamp of the Mosaic Revelation guides men to the place where they can see by the light from above and beyond." "As applied to your situation," the Teacher says, "the light I held in my hand is the light of God's Law. By this you were drawn into the earth life, and by this, at the juncture of the passage ways, you were directed onto the upward climb toward the Source light of the Apex. By that light you climbed to the place where you stood when the Lord met you face to face, as Lord of the Living Dead. You perceived that, in respect to the Purpose of God through the ages of human experience, you were as a fly on the wall of the Great Pyramid; that the height between you and the Source light was as infinity, and to your view, as trackless. The place where you stood was just large enough for your feet and further progress was only possible by following where the Christ and the three men had gone.”
“You perceived that I, the man with the lamp, am the one appointed for you to follow at this time; I, who have guided you through many lives past, by whom you are now come within sight of the Queen's Chamber."
This statement, received April 25, 1972, identifies the man with the cube lamp as John the Beloved Apostle--the Seer of Patmos. Through the years from 1947 to the present time, when he was taking charge for the completion of the Special Mission committed to him, I had no undebatable clue to his earth life identity.
Visit to Church of Christ of the Future
In 1928 came the move to another and larger house in the same neighborhood. There several important manifestations occurred.
First came the extension of consciousness in which my concept of the Church as a sort of standardized model of worship procedure and doctrine approved by Jesus Christ, and destined to last for countless ages, got a severe jolt. It was an out-of-time-and-place experience, and looking back from my present awareness of the Christ Purpose, it seems to have been designed to give a preview of changes in human comprehension of Jesus and his Earth-Mission that would come to pass in the remaining years of this, the last century of the Piscean Era: changes also in my personal concepts that would prepare me to become an agent of the Christ for the opening of new channels for His Spirit. These were signified by the Transfiguration scene being given prominence over that of the Crucifixion; by the Door of the Christ-Presence taking the place of the altar; by the testimony of Christian witnesses becoming a Consultorium; by the Baptistry being at the exit instead of the entrance; and at the conclusion, by the naming of the church as "The Church of Our Lord--The Church of the Open Door."
I was ironing the week's laundry: standing with a hot iron in my hand and one of my husband's shirts spread out on the ironing board. The dining-room windows were across to my right, the open stairway across to my left. The fireside seat with the paneled wall above it was in front of me. Then suddenly, I was no longer aware of my earth environment, but was in a large church of cathedral style. The large nave stretched ahead of me, but instead of going straight forward, I turned to the left and entered a side chapel. It seemed to be for solitary prayer and meditation. The walls were covered with murals depicting scenes from the life on earth of Our Lord. The scene of the Transfiguration was the most prominent. It covered an entire wall. Facing this, in the centre of the chapel, was a single prie-Dieu. The atmosphere was rarified, as though innumerable prayers and meditations had created a spiritual updraft that swept the soul upwards and bathed it in a healing, exalted Peace.
From this chapel, I returned to the nave; and as I walked there, I was surprised to note that there was no pulpit. There was the usual lectern with eagle wings outstretched, but these supported--not the full Bible--but the New Testament. There were further surprises. In the chancel, in the place where I expected to see the altar, there was a plain door and above the door was the Inscription: "If any man thirst let him come to Me" (John 7. 37).
From the chancel I passed into a long room which I was told was the Consultorium because in it were stored the records and spiritual witnessing of all Christ's Servers. It was in the charge of a tall man in a plain brown cassock as of a Roman Catholic monk. I did not see him; I only had the impression of him.
The impression was identical with the appearance of Ignatius Loyola who manifested in February 1947, about twenty years later.
I passed from the Consultorium to a small Baptistry. This also was a surprise, for the room and its font were so small I concluded it could only be intended for single and private baptism. The font was in the floor. Another surprise was that the Baptistry was the exit from, and not the entrance to, the church.
As stated in the book Between Time and Eternity, I am obliged in describing the experience to give the impression of entering the church and walking around, and observing as in time-and-place sequence; but actually I was aware of the whole and every separate part and detail all at once. I was able to perceive an unseen guide of whom I asked questions and received answers. It was an out-of-time-and-place experience manifesting in semblance of time and place conditions--conditions that were still in the future. Having seen all, I exclaimed, "What church is this?"
As I spoke I found myself in the physical world again, standing with the hot iron in my right hand just as I had been before I entered the church. The experience had been of a dimension beyond time and place and my question was asked as the change to the physical operation was taking place. It was answered by the Christ Messenger from that other realm, speaking by means of my own super-conscious awareness: "It is the Church of Our Lord--the Church of the Open Door" (See Revelation 3.8). The detail of the experience relates to my personal path of spiritual expression, which I would tread as the disciple of the living Jesus. The name of the Church relates to the Sixth Church Period of the visions of John of Patmos, and also to the communion of consciousness that will characterize the Church of Christ on earth immediately prior to the Second Coming.
Instruction in the Temple-of-God Consciousness
In the summer of 1943 the Teacher began to speak of a Temple of God, and of myself as an aspirant who desired to serve God by cooperating with the purpose of God manifested in it. This "Temple," I have learned, is not a structure of substance designed, molded, and assembled; but a living organism wherein and whereby the purposes of God, separately and totally, are served by those in at-one-ment with them.
I learned that the progress of a Server is described as a going forward, and the status of a Server as a degree.
In March 1941, an unknown and unidentified communicator said: "You have had much experience in the outer courts of the Temple, but now you are entering the Temple itself where you will proceed by graduated initiations toward the Holy of Holies." An "initiation," I learned later on, is a testing situation of earth circumstances that demonstrates whether or not the Server is ready for advanced experience and responsibility.
In March 1943 I was informed by a man whom I saw and heard in the psychic consciousness that I had been promoted to the Third Degree. The man came into my room carrying a large mace. He described in specific detail the circumstances which had constituted my testing. In March 1944, at Holy Communion, I saw clairvoyantly golden gates of filigree work representing a vine, which were opening slowly, and I heard "the voice" say, "The gates of the Temple are now open." From this, it seems clear that the "gates" open for admittance of each Server individually according to the state of readiness. I also conclude that the entering of the "Temple" is only possible for one who has passed the Third Degree initiation.
On July 6, 1944, at evening prayers, the Teacher said: "You will proceed by the light of the Ever-living One, to the Altar of Manifestation where he will appear whom you have sought."
In June 1945 I was told: "The lessons which have been set for you are the same that all Aspirants, in times long past and in your own times, must master. These are not of the mind nor of the understanding, but of the life forces. Having gained a little control, you must wrestle in a larger field where the forces are greater that resist your spiritual desire: so that for a time you may seem to be losing rather than gaining. Be of good cheer. I will direct your path so that you shall not greatly fall. Take heed of my counsel. Acknowledge in all your thoughts and decisions our Gracious Lord and remember always his words of reassurance: Let not your heart be troubled, neither be afraid."
The significance of the experience of Isaiah at his acceptance as a Messenger of the Holy One of Israel was explained thus: "In every day of crisis--of approaching judgment--the Voice of the Lord comes forth from the Holy of Holies and is echoed by the angels from above the high altar: “Whom shall we send, and who will go for us?”; and some initiate, kneeling in the silence of the Temple answers tremblingly, “Here am I, send me.” But before he can go forth upon the mission to which he has heard the call, his lips must be cleansed with fire from the holy altar. "Alas, I am a man of unclean lips," says the accepted one, "and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips." Thus he bewails his impotence and the karmic condition to which he is bound; yet he fears the cleansing fire. For who can receive in his heart and speak with his mouth the word of the Lord except his channels of utterance be cleansed? The cleansing of water is not enough, for water is of the soul realm. The purging must be by fire, symbol of Eternal Spirit, and the life that has hitherto dwelt only in the auric substance of souls shrinks from the fire, which licks up that by which he lives. He knows not yet that he can live in the fire as comfortably as in the etheric vapour; he must become conditioned to it. The fire must touch his lips, for thought and speech are the organic vehicles of Holy Spirit. Blessed is he upon whom comes direct communication of Spirit, for at the last he shall ascend unto the throne of the Master and dwell forever in the realms of essential being. In every realm there are those who serve the Lord of Truth and Love; but in earth and in water all is seasonal. In the realm of fire alone is service without end."
On April 4, 1945, the Master Jesus himself spoke saying: "My Daughter, you are about to enter the Inner Temple, the Holy of Holies. Wherefore purify yourself that you might be able to rise up in that holy place. There are many that have essayed to do so, but the Lord, who searches the innermost parts, himself chooses them that shall stand and serve before him. Wherefore, anoint yourself and see that you be in love and charity toward all men; do good to them that wish you ill; pray for them that transgress against you. Speak always to heal and to bless, that it may be well with you in all things; for upon the head of him that sins with knowledge shall judgment fall. So live and speak that you may be justified to thyself in the sight of the Lord of Heaven and Earth. I have prayed for you that the Spirit of Truth may come to you, who shall lead you and instruct you in all knowledge. Be faithful and at last shall arise the temple of your dream. I am well pleased."
On June 10, 1959, I was received into a small temple where Fourth Degree Initiates received instruction for their further progress. The Teacher was the priest in charge for me. The temple was of white stone--almost as if it were carved or molded from one stone. The approach was by four terraces in which were four sets of four steps extending across the entire width of the Temple. Every fourth step extended back by white flagstones to the beginning of the next terrace, and the Fourth Step of the Fourth Terrace extended back to the portico of the Temple, at the entrance to which were Four Groups of Pillars-- four pillars in each.
This Fourth Degree Initiation, I have learned, equates with the test of parting with all possessions and prestige of earth in order to be a fully dedicated Christ server. The one being tested does not decide or resolve to do this; circumstances make it inevitable. The reaction of the Aspirant determines the change of status in the Temple-of-God consciousness.
Status in the Temple-of-God service is indicated by manifestations of the Holy Fire, altar lights and vessels, vestments and ordinations. Neither understanding of, nor belief in, the desirableness of such is essential to the manifesting.
In July 1944, I found myself walking along a dark tunnel by the light of a small hand lamp.
In May 1947, a virgin's lamp appeared on the altar, and the Teacher said, "I have lit your lamp," and the whole sanctuary was filled with sunlit radiance.
Forked lightning has manifested many times, and on January 23, 1966, as I made my dedication, I was standing in the midst of a bush of rising flames, in the midst of which was the golden light of the Christ-consciousness. On May 10, 1964, Hebrew letters appeared in the centre of the altar with the dazzling radiance of "the sun when shining in his strength." My contemplations on these manifestations reveal that the Temple of the Holy One is Cosmic, and awareness of it is an individual awakening, a distinctive experienced reality--limited, but progressive. Sectarian operation is merely an agreed interpretation of mutual awareness. These are the Courts of the Temple where, says the Teacher, “the Master walks and speaks. His voice and his word are in every place; but according to the place where you are and the service you render, is your awareness of His presence."
The Temple of Manifestation is awareness of the Point of Emergence. The Temple of Beauty is awareness of the Purpose of God whether manifest or unmanifest: it is the Holy of Holies.
By Third Eye vision in the summer of 1969, four Initiates of the Fourth Degree Temple were seen walking with the Master on the terraces and pavements of the temple. They were identified individually to me by the Teacher as Rienzi, immortalized by the poet Byron; the poet-philosopher Goethe; the poet dramatist Francis Bacon; and the scientist Sir James Jeans.
The work of the Teacher from 1914 can now (1972) be seen as bringing me forward in understanding of the Temple-of-God-Operation to the point where I can be used as the outlet on earth of his (the Teacher's) special message.
The Teacher explains the Temple-of-God-Operation as follows:
It is the Temple of Spiritual Attainment--a building of God not made with hands. It exists complete in the Eternal Consciousness. The plan and foundations were predetermined of God. They already are and cannot be changed. As man is able, and goes forward, the structure comes into being. The substance of it is Experience of God-Reality by the soul of man. This is individual, and by this ever-accumulating experience the walls and pillars are raised, the pavements are laid and the aisles are marked out, the colour-patterns of lights appear, and entrance to sanctuaries at higher levels is accomplished. The Temple itself is already in existence: It is from everlasting to everlasting, but as man's soul experiences the God-Reality, the Temple comes into manifestation.
Man's soul in at-one-ness with God is the floor, the walls, the pillars, the light-transmitting panes. This is the "Temple" and with the Apostle of the Gentile Dispensation we can say:
God who made the world and all things therein, does not dwell not in temples made with hands…He has made man to dwell on the earth for a particular purpose, that he may seek after God, if haply he might find him.
Law of Progress in Temple-of-God Status
On February 20, 1945, an Egyptian Snake Charmer manifested, who was in appearance very like Ignatius Loyola. He was the same in build and height and in the contour of his head and face; and the top of his head was bald as in the tonsure of a Catholic monk; but, though he did not identify himself, his manifestation was with the authority of the Christ.
He came into my room shortly after I had awakened and seated himself, cross-legged, on the floor. As he did so, the furnishings of my room disappeared and the ceiling, floor and walls changed to a stone cell. He took from an inside pocket of his upper garment three sections of a tubular instrument. He fitted these together and they formed a reed instrument. It was black with silver markings spiraling around it. It was long and curved in places so that with the markings it resembled a snake.
He began to blow into the mouthpiece of the instrument but no sound came out. It was like a scene out of the silent movies. After a few seconds of silent playing, he stopped and took the sections apart again and put them back in his inside pocket. He then stood up and as he turned to leave, he said: "First Service, then Satan, then Power."
Ordinations in Temple-of-God Consciousness
(As Server of the Altar of Prayer and Praise)
In respect to my officiating in any ritual of Holy Communion or other religious rite, I have done so only in obedience to directives by Christ Servers of Authority in the heaven world. The hand of the Apostle John presenting to me the sacred Paten and the Holy Bread, was clearly a message that Christ's purpose by me would include the giving of His Bread to others; but at the time, I thought it was just for me. That was in September, 1936.
In September, 1944, I was ordained Officiant of the Altar of Prayer and Praise; and in September, 1947, as Officiant of the Altar of Holy Communion. My ordination as Officiant of the Altar of Prayer and Praise was a complete surprise. At my time of Evening Prayer, I was standing before the place of my little altar, but it had become a golden altar such as the Altar of Incense described in Exodus 30 v. 1-5. The messenger appointed for my instruction was standing behind me and I did not see him. The Voice of the Lord spoke from realms above us saying: “Place upon her a garment of white silk embroidered with gold filigree work," and this was done. It was a cassock of white satin with embroidery upon the back of it between the shoulders, of a large golden censer. The Voice then said: "Place in her hands the golden censer that she may know that she is anointed to declare the truth of Christ; for through her the prayers of thousands of children of earth shall ascend to the Throne of Grace."
There was much more than that which I did not afterwards remember. Then the Instructor put his two hands over mine from behind me, and swung the censer to the left and to the right, and then high up and down again before the altar. I did not realize until later, when I was writing the record of it, that in those gestures I had made the sign of the cross.
At one point in the ceremony the Instructor said: "And behold, and lo, a great multitude whom no man could number." I judge that the Christ Agent who ordained me Officiant of the Golden Altar of Incense is he who is in charge of the carrying out of the Christ Mission I serve. He is "The Teacher" and is referred to elsewhere in the records as the "Golden Candle" and also as the "Jeweled Pen." This Servant of Christ, now known to me as the Beloved Apostle, John of Patmos, also ordained me Officiant of the Altar of Christ Communion. This was after the Master Himself had manifested in his Resurrection body and had placed in my hands the Holy Chalice; and after Ignatius Loyola had made known to me the special responsibilities of my Christ service that lay ahead.
Third Eye Vision of Creation
July 16, 1971 -- A moment after waking, about 7 a.m., I began to see the swirling substance of the universe speeding away from right to left, and then luminous bubbles, somewhat like the moon. They were all of various sizes and spaced at various distances from each other, and all were going in the opposite direction from the general drift, and moving toward that part of the heavens from which I was viewing them. One was very large—seven or eight times larger than the largest of the others. It had what at first seemed to be a fold in its circumference, but then like a cloud-belt. These bubbles each and all were revolving and at the same time expanding in a larger pattern with the myriads of golden star-points.
Having seen this sample of the picture instruction, there was not more immediately, so I decided that the operator [Editor's note: I.e. a Christ-server or mediator of the experience in the life-beyond-death] was waiting for me to get my breakfast coffee. After I had risen and put everything in order and was settled on the chesterfield, the viewing began again. The light was turned on in the centre of my forehead so that I could see the picture about to be shown on my third-eye screen. And once more, I was looking at the golden star sparks ever speeding and expanding from right to left; and the operator said, “This is the substance of which and in which and by which all things are formed within and without. As there is a heaven of heavens, so there is a within of withins. There is a within of every within.”
I then seemed to be viewing the heavens from the circular edge of the earth, as though the cloud formations of our atmosphere were billowing at my feet and the operator said, “Viewing the heavens from this point, it seems to you that you are standing still on a stationary orb within everything else in motion and speeding past and outwards and beyond; but you also are an integral part of all, both the motion and the pattern of it all. It is a matter of consciousness and focus.”
I then saw patches appear in the moving stardust as though someone had stopped the motion in those areas, and instead of speeding sparklers, there were layers of bands of substance of various densities and colours.
Then in my own aura (not in outer space), the outline of what I took to represent a hand-mirror appeared, excluding the stardust. And within this mirror appeared the head and shoulders of a tall man. He was of the Middle Ages, I would think, and after him appeared in silhouette others of different contour and type. I think these may be a group of men banded together to use my receptivity, such as it is. I would say they were all of contemplative habit, but some were of modern times—1900 plus.
Then, instead of standing on the edge of the earth planet, I was standing before a straight edge, somewhat like that of a table or an altar. It was white, but there was nothing on it except a metal object right in front of me. The object was upright and may have been an instrument for determining an exact centre of an angle—a sort of T square upside down.
After this, the rich purple of the Master’s aura appeared and I saw it emerge out of a within of topaz gold. I then saw rings of colour—orange flame, purple, pale mauve, and in the centre, pale green fading into pale sunlight. I am inclined to think this is my own aura. I then saw the lilac four-petalled flower in the center of my forehead. It was stationary for a moment and then began to recede until it was no longer visible. I gave an involuntary jerk and knew the viewing session was over. A curious phenomenon which I recall as I make these notes was the concentration of dazzling white light outlining the form and dimension of any person or thing about to be formed. I wonder if this explains the statement in Genesis Chap. 1, “And God said, ‘Let here be light: and there was light.’” Also, as the viewing began, someone quoted from the bible, “Hast thou considered my servant Job?”
I feel that all this relates, not only to outer space but to humankind—their physical, their mind and emotions, and all their circumstances and affairs.
Editor's Note: This cosmological vision reflects some of the recognitions of quantum physics, including recognition of the extent to which consciousness shapes and mediates experience, and the inclusion of the observer in the field of perception. By moving from the perception of space as outer to the interior space of the psyche, the vision also suggests that the microcosm or “little order” of the individual repeats the macrocosm or larger order. The center of the individual psyche and that of the cosmic psyche cohere or indwell each other and are one.
A Meeting of Minds: Olga & Philo Judaeus
It was very common for Olga to be rapt in deep contemplation about big concepts that intrigued her. Sometimes she would "meet" others in the contemplative world who shared interest in these same ideas. One such occasion was a visitation by an ancient philosopher who she thought might be Philo Judaeus, in April 1974. There was no internet and she did not have access to libraries that could help her research, so she would draw conclusions about a visitor based on clothing or her impressions at the time. Olga wrote a record of the event, which she called "Thoughts on Life: A Basic Philosophy by a Pilgrim of the Way" (please click on this hyperlink to access).